You're not alone

I searched for love
When the night came, and it closed in
I was alone,
But you found me, where I was hiding

And now I'll never every be the same
It was the sweetest voice, that called my name saying;

'You're not alone
For I am here,
Let me wipe away your every fear.
My love I've never, left your side
I have seen you through the darkest night.

And I'm the one whose loved you all your life,
All of your life'

You cry yourself to sleep
'Cause the hurt is real, and the pain cuts deep
All hope seems lost,
with heartache your closest friend
And everyone else long gone

You've had to face the music on your own
But there is a sweeter song, that calls you home, saying;

'You're not alone, for I am here
Let me wipe away your every tear,
My love I've never left your side,
I have seen you through the Darkest Night,
and I'm the one whose loved you you're whole life,

All of your life.
Faithful and true Forever.
My love will carry you.

You're not alone, for I am here.
Let me wipe away your every fear,
My love I've never left your side.
I have seen you through the darkest night
Your darkest night
And I'm the one whose loved you all your life

All of your life.'

~ Lyrics ... You're not alone by Meredith Andrews

Sometimes we just need the certainty of others, to hold on to their faith, even if that of our's isn't strong enough. It's always easier to look up to the others in our life, and live the nightmare that we're the only ones who feel this, who go through this.

But the best defence of the enemy is to divide and conquer. And it's far easier for us to live in our own snow globe - face the mental, spiritual and physical demons on our own. Because even though we're weaker, our hearts are safer. Once you open up to someone, there's the risk that they can shut you down. But we're stronger in an army, then we are on our own.

Ecclesiastes 5: 9-12

Two are better than one; because they have a good reward for their labour.
For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow: but woe to him that is alone when he falleth; for he hath not another to help him up.
Again, if two lie together, then they have heat: but how can one be warm alone?
And if one prevail against him, two shall withstand him; and a threefold cord is not quickly broken.

And though it's risky - war is dangerous. Winning is guarenteed though.

Oh, and p.s. When it comes to headbutting - God always wins. It's something about being God. I dunno - maybe part of the job description? :D

To Know You

To know you is never worry for my life, and
To know you is to never to give in or compromise
To know you is to want to tell the world about you
Cause I can't live without you

To know you is to hear your voice when you are calling
To know you is to catch my brother when he is falling
To know you is to feel the pain of the broken hearted
Cause they can't live with out you.

More than my next breath
More than life or death
All reaching for, I live my life to know you more
I leave it all behind, you are all that satisfies
To know you is to want to know you more
To know you is to want to know you more

To know you is to ache for more than ordinary
To know you is to look beyond the temporary
To know you is believing that you will be enough
Cause there is no life without you

More than my next breath
More than life or death
All I'm reaching for, I live my life to know you more
I leave it all behind, you are all that satisfies
To know you is to want to know you more
To know you is to want to know you more

All this life could offer me, could not compare to you
Compare to you
And I count it all as lost, compared to knowing you
Knowing you

More than my next breath
More than life or death
All I'm reaching for, I live my life to know you more
I leave it all behind, you are all that satisfies
To know you is to want to know you more
To know you is to want to know you more

Compared to you
Compared to you
And I count it all as lost, compared to knowing you
Knowing you
And I count it all as lost, compared to knowing you
Knowing you
~ Lyrics ... To Know You by Casting Crowns

Silence, Music, English and Heaven

Silence is the song that people sing when they have no other forms of expressing themselves.

Music is the method to feel the unexplainable.

And the English language is just flawed.



But then I would rather be here then in the other place where I can't help anyone. And if I didn't have my time here - I know that I would be jealous of those who do.

Just something I find interesting.

Made to Love You

The dream is fading, now I'm staring at the door
I know its over cause me feet have hit the cold floor
Check my reflection, I 'aint feeling what I see
It's no mystery
Whatever happened to a passion I could live for
What became of the flame that made me feel more
And when did i forget that...

I was made to love you
I was made to find you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were wating on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me
I was made to love
and be loved by you

The dream's alive with my eyes opened wide
Back in the ring you've got me swinging for the grand prize
I feel the hate is spitting vapours on my dreams
But I still believe
I'm reaching out, reaching up, reaching over
I feel a breeze cover me called Jehova
And Daddy I'm on my way
Cause I was made to love...

I was made to love you
I was made to find you
I was made just for you
Made to adore you
I was made to love
And be loved by you
You were here before me
You were waiting on me
And you said you'd keep me
Never would you leave me
I was made to love
and be loved by you

Anything I would give up for you
Everything, I'd give it all away

I was made to love you
I was made to adore you, made just for you
~ Lyrics ... Made to Love you by Toby Mac

Procrastination Post 1/Bible Study

I often find that when an assessment task or something is due, I am the most productive. That is, at other things ...

So, 2nd Timothy 2:4 says:

'No soldier in active service entangles himself in the affairs of everyday life, so that he may please the one who enlisted him as a soldier.' (New American Standard Bible)

and a link attached to it led me here;

'For if, after they have escaped the defilements of the world by the knowledge of the Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, they are again entangled in them and are overcome, the last state has become worse for them than the first.(2 Peter 2:20)

*Oh, for the day when I will be able to link Bible verses like that!*

Now, for the amazing relevance to my life. Yesterday I mentioned how I live in two worlds, and how they don't co-exist well. Up until just now, I thought that the lack of 'meeting places' was because of my lack of experience .. but now I'm not so certain. What was it I said? 'I would believe in anything as long as you pointed me to the right verse.'

Well, Oh, My God! I think that God might be trying to say something here ... :D

I may explain later ... If I remember

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Part 1; 'No soldier in active service...' therefore soldiers that aren't in active service do this sometimes. I want to be in 'active service' - so in order to do that I need to make sure that I am NOT doing this.

Part 2; '... entangles himself in the affairs of everyday life'. Interesting use of the word 'entangles', over 'involves'. To me, it suggests that the soldier can be involved, can participate, they just can't 'trap' (?) themselves in everyday life; meaning avoiding things that will 'trap' their;

~ Time

~ Energy

~ Passion

~ Attention

for any long periods of time.

And now THAT has personal relevance ... ouch! But then there's the last bit of the verse;

Part 3; '... so that he may please the one who enlisted him as a soldier.' So, when we start sacrificing those parts of our lives which entangle us, preventing us from passing into that other 'world', ultimately it is advantageous to our relationship with Christ.

And at the end of the day, that's the only thing we can guarantee.

May your swords stay sharp!

War

I live two lives ...
Two separate lives in two worlds.

These two worlds meet, but not for long. Usually, just long enough to pass from one to the other.

And I can't explain them.

One of them is by far preferable to the other; sometimes it's the only thing that keeps me going. But when I'm in the other life seems to be more pointless and dull - like a white room with everything covered with a layer of fine, grey dust.

All I hope, is that I further explore and explain my perspective of God, humanity and the relationship between them, that the two worlds will be less in conflict with each other, or that they will become clearer to others, and that I will no longer doubt my sanity.

So ... to begin.

A man had a dream and was in heaven, with all of humanity who were, are and will be. God made an announcement; there was going to be a crisis and He needed volunteers to help it. But not everyone could be involved.

Those who wished to help lined up in single file. One by one, God would take them aside, speak to them quietly and some would then leave the group.

When it got to the man's turn, he wasn't sure what to expect.
'Are you sure you want to do this?' God asked him. 'It will not be easy. They will doubt my existence, mock you for believing. There will be challenges ~ and adventures ~ around every corner. Even the music playing in the background will be degrading. They will force you into corners, all of them just a tool of the enemy.' His eyes were full of so much pain.
'There is so much good you can do, so much of the world you can change without even realising, but it is also so easy to fall out of line.'

'Child, I love you, and I know you. But it is your decision. Are you sure you want to do this?'

We all signed our name on the register of the war. But so many people have wandered - like sheep - from the road. And now the wolves are prowling.

I live in two worlds ~ Earth and something beyond. Do you believe in the things that go bump in the night? But after this year, after the people I've met, the things I've seen happen, I would believe in anything as long as you pointed me to the right verse.

But I'm still in training ... and things are getting clearer every day. We're in a war, one where we all are soldiers.

'Praise the Lord, who is my rock.
He trains my hands for war
and gives my fingers skill for battle.' (Ps 144:1 NLT)

Who am I ...

... that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name?
Would care to feel my hurt?

Who am I
That the bright and golden star
would choose to light the way
for my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what you've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who you are ...

I am
A flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapour in the wind

Still you
Hear me when I'm calling
Lord you catch me when I'm falling...
And you've told me who I am...

I am yours
I am Yours

~Lyrics ... Who am I by Casting crowns